Looking Back

I'm bed-ridden this week, with a pinched nerve, so I've been reading past blogs and looking at pictures. This quote really stood out to me. I posted it 6 months before getting Hannah, our first foster child, and now adopted daughter. I am so thankful we followed God into the unknown. More than the blessing of 4 more children, we drew closer to Him and know Him better now than ever. Praise You Father!
1 month before foster parent certification was final.

 "Ultimately, I have just as little control over my own life and what will happen to me. Isn't the easiest thing at this point to start living in a guarded, safe, controlled way? To stop taking risks and to be ruled by our fears of what could happen? Turning inward is one way to respond; the other is to acknowledge our lack of control and reach out for God's help. If life were stable, I'd never need God's help. Since it's not, I reach out for Him regularly. I am thankful for the unknowns and that I don't have control, because it makes me run to God." - Francis Chan, Crazy Love

So incredibly thankful for the unknowns and God's faithfulness through it all.

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