Showing posts from April, 2016

I Choose Life.

I have to share what I believe God is showing me right now. To preface this - I have been praying for daily revelations from the Lord during this journey with Judah - snippets of His will and plan that can help me walk through this with greater joy and knowledge to share with others about His love.

About 10 days ago, I cancelled hospice. It had been weighing on me for a couple months due to it causing extra stress. I LOVE this hospice and if I had a loved one dying who was not a child, I would use them and recommend them with no hesitation. They unfortunately have no experience with pediatric hospice and it caused a lot of miscommunication. I am so thankful to have developed a good relationship with our pediatrician and he has allowed me to contact him directly about needs from here on out. After cancelling our service with them, we proceeded to find out what we would need to do if Judah passed at home and wasn't on hospice. We figured all of that out and have great peace about tha…

It's Not About You

God has to keep reminding me that the work He calls us to is not about us. You would think that this is a logical enough conclusion that it would be hard to forget, but when you're in the midst of trials, it very much feels like it's about you. "What do You want me to learn from this God?" (Err... how can I speed this learning process up) "How should I feel during this God? Why does Judah have to go through this over and over again?" I wasn't receiving any answers to my constant questions until I was writing a message to a mom in a very similar situation to ours. It appeared that her child was going to be in the arms of Jesus soon and then she stabilized. I was rejoicing with her, but praying for wisdom to share and words to comfort her, knowing that both of us would likely be going through this again very soon. And then God just infused me with His wisdom. It completely changed my perspective, "shifted my gaze," as my friend said.

It's no…